Today was Kyra’s first day of kindergarten… a day
> that I in all honestly thought would never come
> because she was going to stay my tiny little preemie
> forever. Well, today I saw that my little four
> pound preemie was a confident, bright and energetic
> little girl.
> It was quite the bitter sweet moment. She was so
> excited to go. She was ready by the door to go a
> half hour before she left. I sat her down and read
> her the kissing hand and cried the entire time. I
> don’t know how much is just because I am a sappy
> sentimentalist or because of the pregnancy hormones.
> After the story she made me into an even bigger
> blubbering idiot because she threw her arms around
> me and told me that she loved me more than fairies
> and jumped to her backpack.
> Kaeson had a harder day. He wanted so badly to
> start school and to be with his big sister. They
> are very attached and he has great separation
> anxiety when she is not near him. I feel bad for
> the squirt. He has been left behind a lot lately
> just because of their age difference. I think that
> this time, while Kyra is in school, Kaeson and I
> will get some of that one on one time that he has
> been so desperately craving.
> After playing on the playground for a few minutes,
> the bell rang announcing school. Kyra jumped right
> into line and so happily followed her teacher and
> her class into the school house. She didn’t even
> look back. I was so proud of how well she did while
> I stayed back wiping back my waterfall of tears.
> Part of me wanted me to have her run back and say “I
> want to go home with you.” But it did make me happy
> to know that she was confident and that she was
> excited to leap ahead to the next step.
> I was thrilled however when I picked her up from
> school. She ran over, gave me a huge hug and a
> smile. She looked up and said, ” Mom, I coughed at
> school and the fairy flew home to find you. I knew
> that you would come because you love me so much.”
> Another mess of tears. My only hope is that even
> though she is starting school she will maintain that
> darling, sweet personality that has dug so deeply
> into our hearts. They never told me that this was
> the tough part of parenting at this age.