For the past year or so, I have been struggling physically and emotionally. My coping mechanism for struggling is to disappear. I recoil from friends and family. I stay off of social media. I drop my blog. I try to blend into my surroundings and stay off the radar. It is a self destructive technique as I am a very social person, but when I get to this point, I don’t even have the energy to try.
I had a friend several weeks ago tell me that she noticed what I was doing and that it was destroying not only me, but the relationships around me. I know that it has. She told me that she has been where I am and it is a hard place to be.
She made the analogy that when we feel this way, it is as though we are drowning. When we drown do we just sit there and sink, we kick and fight and struggle until we hit the surface. If we do that, we won’t drown. Think of what is most important to you and kick and struggle for that… for me, it is my children.
So, even though it is hard and I am feeling so deep, I am going to struggle, kick and fight until I hit the surface.