I had the last week off, which was GREAT. I loved not having to go to work. Kyra was still in school, so it was just the boys and I palling around for the week. We had a good time just hanging out and being a family. We cleaned, organized, played games, did origami, made books and watched movies.
On my weeks off, I also try to get in as many errands as I possibly can. I scheduled meetings with my doctors, my lawyer, etc. It is amazing how quickly your schedule fills up when you are trying to take advantage of “extra” time. By the end of the week, I was rather stressed. Not everything had gone as I had hoped and it was getting to me.
I didn’t get the whole basement cleared out. I didn’t get rid of nearly as many things as I had anticipated. I didn’t get the results at the doctor or lawyer that I had hoped for. Although I did get a lot accomplished, I still felt lacking at the end of the week.
Saturday came by and I hopped on facebook for a minute. I took a minute to look through the posts of my friends and all that was going on in their lives. This is what I saw:
- This was the week for vacations. I had numerous friends living it up in Hawaii, Mexico, Disneyland, Cabins, lakes and snow vacations.
- I had several friends get married over the last week. Pictures of nuptial bliss dotted my facebook feed. It is fun to see people so happy and joyful in this great moment in life.
- Popping the question seemed to be the thing to do this last weekend. A lot of happy girls got some pretty fun and fancy bling this last weekend.
- Parents are so proud of their children. I love when people take pride in their children and put their moments on facebook.
All of these are fun and I am so excited for my friends that are enjoying these great experiences. This weekend though, it started getting to me. I am blessed beyond compare in so many ways. However, in others, I feel stagnant and stuck. Some of it is by my own choices, as I have chosen to sacrifice some things in life in order to put my family first. In other aspects, I am simply dealing with the selfish decisions of others. It hit me hard that I am simply not where I want to be, and even though I am trying hard to make the best of things, there are things that are, quite frankly, completely out of my control, and I am unable to do anything about it.
I sat on Sunday letting my mind get the better of me when I finally said STOP. Although there were a hundred things that needed to be done at home, I stopped. I packed up my cute little Chihuahua and we hit the road. I didn’t know where we were going, but I needed to be somewhere else.
I connected my phone to my car stereo, put on my Spotify Chill 2017 list and away we went. We started at the dog park and soon found ourselves up in Park City. We got out and strolled around the outlets. We went up to the Olympic Park. We ventured on up to Main Street and window shopped. We chatted with people and Titan got a lot of attention. Along the way we took shameless selfies… because that is all you can do when you are by yourself with your 4 pound rat dog.
We drove up to Kamas and just enjoyed the calm, the serene music and the beautiful skies. Just getting out of the smog of the valley did such a great job of balancing out my mind and my soul. I had time to think and process and work some issues out in my mind. I found myself separating from the discouragement that I had been experiencing and was able to gain a fresh perspective.
I forget how it important it is to take a moment out of life and take care of myself. I so often lose myself in things that have to be done, that I don’t take time to sit back and enjoy what is good in life. Let this be a lesson to me. It is healing to step outside of life and just enjoy a day.