I have a lot of fun things to post about this week so, I am just going to get this one out of the way. Feel free to skip it and move on. Kind of a venting moment.
Have you ever had one of those weeks where you are just completely drained come Friday. Well, I don’t get them often but, they do come and this week was one of them. It is only Thursday and I am already in need of a major vacation…by myself…somewhere far away. Oh, well. That is what dreams are for right? So, for those of you that have been aware of it and have still stuck with me, I appreciate your patience, love, concern and the fact that you are still speaking to me. I appreciate it.
It isn’t that huge events transpire or that major catastrophe erupts turning my life into a personal A-bomb. It is just the culmination of little stresses that seem to bite at my ankles.
It started off on Sunday when I had to speak in Sacrament meeting. I have never in the past had a problem speaking in front of large groups of people. In fact, I have spoken in front of huge groups of people before and done just fine. However, in the recent past, I have gotten very nervous and I don’t know why. It isn’t a nervousness that I can get away with either, it shows up in my voice. Anyway, it wasn’t that my talk was any big deal. It was mostly me talking about some of my life experiences and how they relate to certain Gospel principles. Anyway, this time, I was really worried about it.
Monday, my sister moved back in with my parents. For those of you that understand the situation, you will understand why that is a bit of a stressful situation. I am hoping that it all turns out for the good.
Tuesday was no huge deal but, lots of little things. I am desperately trying to get my yard into shape. So, I spent the morning planting flowers and lavender bushes in my yard. As fast as I was planting them, Toad was decapitating them. I was dirty and frustrated. He was dirty and completely elated. As I am completely covered in mud, my cute, sweet 70+ year old visiting teachers show up and offer to do their cute lesson out in my front yard where we spend most of the time trying to keep Kaeson out of the road so that he doesn’t get hit by a car. I was determined that day to get Kyra’s fairy outfit done for the festival and spend a good portion of the day washing dozens of yards of fabric trying to decide which ones to use only to have the cats sit on them leaving lots of hair. That then instigated more laundry. Tuesday was a huge Diet Coke day.
Wednesday was a date with a new dentist. No, I am not keeping a man on the side but, I did go to see a new dentist and I was scared out of my mind that he was going to tell me what a terrible brushing job that I had done and that I had 7 cavities. Well, all of that stress led to a lot of nothing. I did have a cavity but, I knew about that and I ended up getting the nicest dentist that I have ever met. And with my genetically super inferior enamel, that is a lot of dentists and the like. I returned to my mom’s to retrieve my boys only to find them playing Star Wars with the hose as a light saber and tupperware as shields. I raced home to teach my music lessons only to have two not show up. That evening was not one of my greatest but, for the time being, I won’t go there. Best to let some things lie.
Thursday. Today was an emotionally exhausting day. I went to the graduation of my two baby brothers. They were both born when I was a junior in high school. They were not even in kindergarten when I left on my mission. Today they graduated top of their class and I left reminiscing about the past and thinking too deeply. I came home with a migraine and spent the rest of the day trying to get my wits about me. Tonight I had a church meeting and those always seem to take it out of me.
Tomorrow, my son turns 5 and I am not ready to let him do that. He is too little to start growing up. We are having a BBQ with friends and family. Friends because we love them and family (inlaws) because we have to. Anyway, I want him to have a great day.
Anyway, thanks for skipping over this one. I appreciate it. Just wanted to get it out.