I went to talk to the lawyer today. She was very nice but very matter of fact. This is going to be expensive and I have no idea how in the world I am going to pay for this. I am going to find a way though. My parents were kind enough to pay for the initial consultation and my dad went with me. I have been diligent enough in getting all of my ducks in a row and have everything ready to file. I have all of my case numbers lined up as well as all of my documentation. I do need to come up with the retainer of $2000 but, I know that I will find a way to do that. It will work.
There is a chance that I will be able to keep my home for a temporary period of time. Also, I will have to get a job but not immediately. The courts are going to be willing to listen to the fact that I have a small child that is not yet in school, and my children have some special needs.
I hope that H is willing to work through this amicably. I know that he is talking to the bishop. I also know that the bishop is not on my side of this whole thing. The bishop has been calling me to meet with him but, I really don’t have any desire to talk with him.
Also, H is talking to my best friend L’s husband which, in actuality, is his only friend. However, I think that that complicates matters. I have told L everything and I am sure that she has told her husband everything. I don’t ever tell her anything and not expect her to share it with her husband. However, now he has talked to H about what I have told L.
I feel like I am all alone in this and it is driving me crazy. I don’t have anyone that I am able to discuss things with and it is driving me crazy. I am trying really hard to keep myself happy and fulfilled!