I realized something today. I am simply not made to work full time. Nope, I am not. It is simply too exhausting to have a job. I wonder if that can be called an occupational hazard.
The majority of the faculty has spent the last week up in Park City, Utah doing some math training. However, since I am a “specials” teacher that really teaches no math whatsoever (can I get a HUGE HALLELUJAH!) I didn’t need to go. I instead popped in and out of school trying to get my classroom set up a little bit. It was a little bit of a nice change of pace spending time in my classroom getting some things done.
At my last school, the professional days were scripted and full of educational basics, regulations, information, etc, and left very little time to work on a classroom or get things done. There were classes and so much information that I had a hard time getting my brain around it. I remember always being so on edge that I hadn’t done something that I was supposed to and I feeling that I had forgotten something.
Today was such a huge leap from that. We had two meetings that we had to attend. One was a short meet and greet of the teeny faculty that teaches at the school. I sat there in awe as how all of the faculty was so close and friendly with each other. They were friends and had a tight bond. They immediately took me in as one of their own and were SO nice. The second meeting was with the art specialist. She took two classes of two hours to teach us how to do a painting. It was such a cool experience.
And that was it! The rest of the time, I spent working in my classroom and it was calm and peaceful and I enjoyed every single second of it. It is such a great feeling to know that what I am putting up is staying up. I don’t need to take it down in 9 weeks when I go off track. It is a whole new experience. Today when I was working in my room, I put on Pandora Radio- Anthem Lights- and worked quietly at my desk.
Here is the kicker. My day was mostly low key and chill. However, when I got home, I was completely spent. I couldn’t move. I was more tired than I have been in a very long time. I walked in and was immediately attacked by my kiddos as they hadn’t seen me all day. I left before they woke up this morning. Then I sat down on the couch and all was lost. I was immediately asleep. I couldn’t even function.
That is the moment that I realized that I wasn’t meant to work full time. I don’t even know if I am meant to work part time. So, the next time we see an opening for a position that is for someone to walk the dog, browse pinterest and do laundry all day.. let me know. I am the girl for that. For some reason that seems to be a whole lot less work than sitting in an hour meeting and painting a canvas. I think we need to keep me in your prayers next week as I attempt to teach half days. Then, big time the week after that as I start teaching full days.