I won’t deny that this past year and a half has been tough for me, but I am learning that the more I go through, learn and experience, the better, stronger and happier I become. I look at where I was 2 years ago and where I am now, and I am a different person. I am really loving who I am becoming.
There is the famous story of “Push Against the Rock.” I love this story. I love that even though this man didn’t think he was going anywhere, he was becoming a much stronger and faithful person. I feel like that quite often in my life! I have felt that I am just pushing a big rock that won’t move. I will admit, that at time, it has been discouraging. However, I am strong! I am woman! I am capable!
One of my favorite examples of this was I got very ill with the flu 18 months ago. I couldn’t move and needed to have someone stay with me for several days. I got sick with the same darn thing almost exactly a year later. And… you know what…. I was able to handle it! ON MY OWN!
I now know that I can fix a flat tire, put up a Christmas Tree, move a treadmill, paint a room, install an alarm system, negotiate a bill, fix a sprinkler, turn off the water main, fix a broken fridge, stand up for myself, confront and stop a rumor, be happy regardless of what is going on around me! I have also learned that there are times that I need to humble myself and ask for help.
I have been keeping a list of some songs that have helped me through this past year and ones that I have fallen in love with. I am putting them up on my playlist! I hope that you enjoy them and that they make you smile as much as they make me smile. Listen to them. They are great!
I was talking to my Mission President last week. I talked with he and his wife about some of the current issues that were pending in my situation and the fact that I simply don’t know how certain things are going to end up or in which direction I should go. He shared with me a poem that he found particularly poignant, and I have to admit, it was exactly what I needed.
“And I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year,
Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown’
And he replied:. ‘Go out into the darkness and put your hand into the Hand
Of God. That shall be to you better than light and safer than a known way’
So I went forth, and finding the Hand of God, trod gladly into the night.”
Minnie Louise Haskins
It is sometimes hard just letting go and saying what is meant to be will happen. However, I am finding that the more that I do that, the happier I am!